Sunday, July 29
dread.
i dread going to school somedays nowadays.
take a test or two, or maybe even three everyday.
go home, mug your ass off.
quite the life i thought i'd be signing up for, but not one i'm really desiring now.
so maybe i'll mug hard after all, and get all my 8a1s (excluding chinese),
get labeled as an 'achiever', land myself in a good junior college,
study.
2 year respite in the armyget a place in one of the universities in the ivy league.
study.
come out, get a job that pays well.
and that would be the oh-so desirably singaporean way to start one's career.
achieve when you're young only to get into the rat race when you're older.
and if you ever win the race, you're still a rat.
doctor - could join them, but i won't be able to stand being a gp cooped up in a clinic room all day.
i don't really want to see innards and all and cut them up.
curious, but no.
psychologist - nah-uh, might end up seeing one.
philosopher - hah. in singapore?
theologist - cue being a priest.
teacher - maybe, but i don't know if i want to commit my whole life to a bunch of seeming ingrates who will appreciate you only a whole lot later (that's if you teach well).
whatever it is, my image of a profession in my mind now, is really nowhere near an office, nowhere near lots of numbers and graphs, just somewhere doing something that's beneficial to someone else.
maybe in africa as a doctor. then i wouldn't have to be cooped up in a room.
and i'd be helping someone at least.
and the reason why i'm probably ranting is probably 'cause i just finished a whole week of tests and tomorrow i've got a chem mock paper, and a history test. stupid of me not to take some form of lit.
so conclusion, i could take the oft-taken route: mug hard, get into a good jc, consider purpose in society later, all singaporean society expects you to do now is get good grades, and it's a bonus if you do well in cca too, double bonus if you actually do community work of your own accord regularly. eventually end up in a well-paying job in the private sector.
or i could mug hard
selectively, get into a jc
i want. eventually end up somewhere that shows la salle's ideals have rubbed off on me. or, be an author/teacher. so yes getting a distinction gives me a broad-based education that gives me many chances in jc, but here's the thing, i've come to a point where if i can do what i love, i'm happy.
oh, and moonlight as an amateur musician.
sweet. (:
but until then, sleep then mugging.
waking up in the early morning to mug.
night.
Posted at 11:32 PM
